I'm sitting outside the shop taking in the music in the park they have every year during artsfest. From what many of the locals have told me artsfest used to be a huge deal and would draw huge crowds... Most people I've talked to this year don't even realize it's occurring this week. Anyway, that's beside the point.
As I'm sitting here I can't help but think of artsfest last year. I hadn't been back at work for too long but we could tell no one knew what to say and started avoiding us (and therefore also avoiding the shop) so I did what I had to do for the business. I put on the biggest smile I could muster and passed out free samples to the people in the park. I made small talk and repeated over and over that we were doing ok... I don't know if people believed me but they didn't seem as scared to talk to us after that.
I wonder sometimes if I put on a smile too much... I use my blog as an outlet but rarely let people see the real me (in real life) and that's not how/who I want to be. I don't know how to be vulnerable without getting hurt, scaring people away or hurting them. I've slowly been letting people in- but still, as a whole, very guarded.
As I'm sitting here I can't help but think of artsfest last year. I hadn't been back at work for too long but we could tell no one knew what to say and started avoiding us (and therefore also avoiding the shop) so I did what I had to do for the business. I put on the biggest smile I could muster and passed out free samples to the people in the park. I made small talk and repeated over and over that we were doing ok... I don't know if people believed me but they didn't seem as scared to talk to us after that.
I wonder sometimes if I put on a smile too much... I use my blog as an outlet but rarely let people see the real me (in real life) and that's not how/who I want to be. I don't know how to be vulnerable without getting hurt, scaring people away or hurting them. I've slowly been letting people in- but still, as a whole, very guarded.
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