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It's amazing the difference...

...a day can make. Yesterday I was already feeling down thinking about this weekend and today I'm back to being ok. I wouldn't say I'm looking forward to it but I'm not dreading it either. I survived last year and I'll survive this year and it'll soon be over and done with until next year. There were some great ideas shared for getting through the day!!!




...one person can make. I've had so many people that have lifted my spirits lately. (I realize I said one person but each person reached out in their own way.) I got a really sweet Bear Hug from one friend (you can check it out below), some friends called, some said little and let their looks and embraces speak, some left encouraging messages. My husband let me relax and knit during the afternoon (and I was very appoligetic for getting snippy at him). All were uplifting & welcome!




...prayer can make. I got a call from the hospital. I really think we're on the same page now. I truly hope so! We've had such support with the blankets and kits and I'd really like to reach out to other small hospitals too but I've been cautious about doing so. Thank you for all the encouragement with this!! Related good news- I went there and had to go down the maternity wing and did well!!! I do feel like God is watching over me even in the small things. If the hospital had called yesterday I probably would have been upset by it all.


Here's a picture of the blanket I started yesterday. I have another I'm working on but since I'm still new to this I was getting really frustrated with knitting & pearling so this one is straight knit.

Comments

Inanna said…
That color yarn is gorgeous!
Amy said…
Wishing you a peaceful day today.
boltefamily said…
Praying for you on this bittersweet day.
krousehouse said…
Thank you so much for your kind comment to my blog last week - this weekend was hard for me, as I know it also was for you, and I really appreciated knowing I am not alone...at the same time I would wish I were alone, because I wish no one else had to feel this. I thought of you on Sunday in my prayers. Thanks again.

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