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It's the little things...

Yesterday a lady I barely know found out I was pregnant. She was so excited she bought me the cutest little baby security blanket! Even more touching to me was when she told me how much she'd been praying for us :) I am amazed that people that barely know me care so much about me and how I'm doing.

Today I needed that security blanket myself.

I went to the doctor today- everything with the baby is good- but I struggled making January's appointment. I asked for an extra appointment to get through the month- the doctor told me she'd be happy to make an appointment for me to see a nurse and hear the heartbeat. I think subconsciously I was hoping for an extra ultrasound- especially now that I have the Doppler at home. I haven't been anxious about Christmas- but I'm worried I'll be worried all of January with this baby. I went ahead and made the appointment, but I'll probably end up canceling it. We'll see. I'm hoping it's like last year- the anticipation being worse than the actual days... I just don't know how pregnancy will effect my emotions- the hormones definitely bring the tears faster.

This Christmas I hope to focus more on the little things that bring those feelings of love- not anxiety. We're taking some time and closing up the store to spend time with family- because in the end that's more important.

I will be thinking of everyone this Christmas and wishing you all peace!
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Bree said…
Easier said than done, I know. Do you have one of those 3d u/s places near you where you could pay for an elective u/s. Theyre popular here. That could be an option. Or if worse comes to worse, you could go to the ER and freak out. I've already did that around 7 weeks. I was so freaked out and didn't believe there was a living being in there. Thinking of you. Glad you have a new blanket to snuggle. :)
December 23, 2009 at 9:27 PM
Franchesca said…
Oh I so get what you mean about the u/s. It brings a HUGE sigh of relief when I get to see the baby. And you are right, pregnancy hormones magnifies any emotion we feel, including those tears. Thinking about you and your little one.

That was also incredibly thoughtful of that lady to give you that blanket.

XO
December 23, 2009 at 11:13 PM
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