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Passover

Passover- I wonder what the Pharaoh thought when Moses told him that all the firstborn sons would die in the night.

Was my heart hardened when I first had that inclination? Or was God just preparing my heart heart for the loss to come?

Did Pharaoh even tell the other Egyptians? Would it have mattered? Obviously word quickly spread through the Israelite community and they prepared... the blood of the lambs protected them.

I'm so grateful for the blood of The Lamb that protects me still.

The angel of death has visited my household- but while it robbed Levi of his breath, it did not steal his eternal life, nor did it rob me of my hope.

We go from Passover- a celebration that death did not stop at the Israelite homes. A celebration I feel I can not partake in... but then Easter comes... and while death had occurred, it did not have power over the grave!! That's something worth celebrating to me!

I wonder what Jesus thought of the irony as he sat to dine at his final Passover feast? He knew that death was coming for him- the firstborn Son- but he knew it would bring life for all... I know the timing of his death was no coincidence- he was the sacrificial Lamb- his blood was poured out to protect us from death- but yet he knew that he would not be passed over- he would have to taste death for us all.

The timing of Passover this year comes for me at a time that I wonder if it's a coincidence or not. I am 36 weeks pregnant right now... sometime between week 36 & 37 the angel of death came silently and took Levi without me even knowing. This time though I know that death can and does darken the doorways of our homes but it is life I am focused on! I have faith that I'll meet this baby as she takes her first breaths in three weeks (if not sooner).

Comments

Tyler said…
your strentgh and words of wisdom always inspire me! I think I am just as anxious as you are for you to hold that baby girl!!! Cant wait for her to make her way here so you can show her off ;)

Keep your chin up girlie and know you are in my prayers
Kara's Mom said…
Why isn't your Dr. taking the baby earlier than when Levi died? My doctor is inducing at 36 weeks, 1 week before Kara died. I thought that was standard practice once you lose a baby in the womb. I'm praying for you and sending you much love for a healthy, live delivery VERY SOON. xxoo
mesa said…
you are such an inspiration and encouragement and know I am here and will be thinking of you and praying for you xoxo
Stacey said…
Absolutely gorgeous and touching post -- it gave me chills. Thank you for sharing your unique perspective. Praying for you and your sweet baby!

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