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I knew this day was inevitable... but still... to come just before Christmas was heart wrenching. In case I haven't mentioned it, Tommy is working at a funeral home now... the same funeral home we used for Levi. There have been times that dropping in to take him lunch is very much a reminder of Levi's death. Just last week for example I needed a place to nurse Madalyn and one of the funeral directors offered the blue room (called that because of the wall color but fitting for other obvious reasons too). Thank you but no- that would be the room we viewed Levi in- I'm not interested in staring at the last place I saw his face while Madalyn eats. There have been difficult funerals too; most of the people have died after long fulfilling lives but a few young people died unexpectedly.

Yesterday though they got the first baby since Tommy started working there. Tommy had taken Madalyn out while I worked on his Christmas present and stopped by work to see about an unfinished project. They got the call while he was there but when his co worker told him they had a baby it didn't register. It didn't register when he told me either. He wanted me to put a kit together. Its always hard to do but normally I put them together and maybe find out the story later. This time I cried as I packed a blanket and wrote a note. This year I've heard from a few of the moms who have received the kits and my heart breaks for each of them... there are no words...


Madalyn has wanted to snuggle the past couple of days and I think after hearing the news I've needed those snuggles more than she did.

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Debby@Just Breathe said…
That is very sad. ((HUGS)) I am intrigued that your husband is working at the funeral home. How did that come about, has it been something he always wanted to do?
December 19, 2010 at 12:32 PM
R said…
I don't know if it would've crossed his mind before we lost Levi. Even after Levi's death he had reservations about it. He's the office manager though and doesn't do any embalming or anything like that. He does do more than just keep the books though and often does memorial videos and will write obits and such. During times like this I think the job hits a little too close to home but I also know how hard he works to do a good job knowng what it can mean to the family.
December 19, 2010 at 2:16 PM
caitsmom said…
So sad. I can't imagine.
December 19, 2010 at 2:55 PM
Holly said…
It has to be difficult in some way for him to work there. I haven't been in the funeral home yet since we were there for Carleigh.
December 27, 2010 at 5:45 PM
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