Life After Levi

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Philippians 4:6 I know this verse, but knowing and following are two different things. I was very anxious in the week leading up to Mother's day. I couldn't even say the word's Mother's Day without getting a tremble in my voice. It was the same way leading up to January... except the anxiety started much sooner then. I don't know why I didn't learn from January, but I didn't. I was dreading Sunday. I did bring my requests for prayers for peace & comfort to those around me. Their prayers were answered & many sent me words of comfort. Once again I had a peace that I don't understand. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7 It may seem strange but knowing God is taking care of these small details like having peace on Mother's day hel...

...a day can make. Yesterday I was already feeling down thinking about this weekend and today I'm back to being ok. I wouldn't say I'm looking forward to it but I'm not dreading it either. I survived last year and I'll survive this year and it'll soon be over and done with until next year. There were some great ideas shared for getting through the day!!! ...one person can make. I've had so many people that have lifted my spirits lately. (I realize I said one person but each person reached out in their own way.) I got a really sweet Bear Hug from one friend (you can check it out below), some friends called, some said little and let their looks and embraces speak, some left encouraging messages. My husband let me relax and knit during the afternoon (and I was very appoligetic for getting snippy at him). All were uplifting & welcome! ...prayer can make. I got a call from the hospital. I really think we're on the same page now. I truly hope so! We've...

I started writing this last year and never really felt it was finished. I still feel it needs more but thought with mother's day coming up I'd share it. For all the mothers longing to be moms.... I have the marks of a mother I have the marks of a mother. The stretch marks that resulted from my lack of cocoa butter. I’ve never been one to primp in the morning and having to open up the store as early as we did I always chose an extra minute or two of sleep rather than make up and lotions. Now I look at the marks and as unsightly as they are I’m glad they’re there; my stretch marks are a reminder of the time I had Levi with me. I have the marks of a mother. We can swap pregnancy and labor stories but no matter how much your back hurt or how much indigestion you had it makes no difference when your baby first smiles at you. You may talk about the 48 hours you endured the pain but my birth plan went out the window when no heartbeat was found. It was for my baby that I wasn...