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The past couple of days have been rough and fairly stressful. Why do we take out our stress on those people that love us the most? I’ve got friends but Tommy is really the only person that I tell my innermost thoughts and feelings to (well... sometimes I also talk to my mother & mother in law). Yesterday though I lashed out on Tommy and when I saw the hurt on his face it crushed me inside and I lost it. I don’t want to push away the only person I rely on and yet I did- Why do we do these things?
Luckily for me Tommy is a very forgiving person and today is a new day. He knows that I was upset at other people but he was the one there to bear the brunt of my feelings.

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