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The Three Bears

We came home today at lunch and I totally felt like the three bears... as in Goldilocks and the Three Bears... except I didn't. Ok, that doesn't totally make sense... I always walk through the garden while our dog runs around the yard (I like to give him a little privacy) and I noticed that someone had been there. Nothing was disturbed but someone put something by one of our plants & it made me do a double take. I really have no clue who did it but it made me smile to think that someone thought of me.

I hope they also enjoyed the beauty of the garden. We'd wanted to create a prayer garden for the community but didn't get the green light so I feel bad sometimes that Tommy and I are the main ones that get to enjoy the flowers... which made me glad that someone popped in today. I hope they at least sat under the gazebo for a little bit and just enjoyed some quiet time with God and didn't just place their mystery object and leave. I also hope they didn't peek into the windows of our house- we're at the store all day and needless to say the house gets a little neglected at times (since when I'm there I prefer to spend my time in the garden rather than folding clothes :)).

While that was a welcome visit I do have a visitor that I have mixed feelings for. I think there's a rabbit that's been nibbling away at some of my plants. I love having wildlife and don't want to get rid of him but I need to figure out which plants won't get eaten. It gets to me though because he lets certain plants grow up nice and lush for a while and just when I think I'll get to see them flower I come out and find them nibbled to a stub- and then the cycle repeats itself. I did scatter some seeds in between some of the plants though so hopefully those will come up and flower and then we can enjoy the flowers and the bunny :)

I'm doing much better this week than last week and I'm grateful for that. I really want whatever God's will is for my life and while I hope that includes children I will praise Him no matter what- I try my best to do it with a joyful heart but there are times I struggle- but then don't we all. Thank you for the encouragement though!!!! It means the world to me!!!

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mel said…
Hi, I found you through Carly's blog. I just wanted to say how sorry I am that Levi was not able to stay with you on this earth. I don't have the heartache of losing a child....but I truly feel such sadness when I hear of a child's passing. I don't understand why children die....but coming across such brave and wonderful Mom's like you...is a gift. You are Levi's Mom...and always will be.......Levi just made it "home" before you. Much Love, Mel in Oregon x

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