I went to the doctor today and got to hear that beautiful sound again. No pictures this time though but that's ok, I don't want to get too spoiled or anything :). (I learned I'll only be getting pictures from now on with the high risk Dr. & my next appointment with him isn't until mid Dec) The visit was short but he had gotten word back on the bloodwork. Everything came back normal. So... still no real answers about Levi's death and no answers as to why I'm itchy now (but the itchiness has gone down in severity some too so that's good). As far as the reasons though... the high risk doctor is ordering more tests later in the pregnancy (by his request- these aren't even tests I knew to demand- lol) and the regular OB is sending me to the dermatologist- which is good because I tried to make an appointment on my own and they aren't taking new patients but today guess what- I'm in. I guess they figure if another doctor thinks it's bad enough then I'm not just running there because I got a massive zit or something.
Sadly enough I could see some people doing that- me- I prefer to go to the doctor when it's necessary but (when not pregnant) once a year is about often enough for me to see a doctor of any type. I can't believe I'm about to admit this in writing but I haven't seen my general practitioner in about 5 years or so. We moved so much after marriage, so I went to a walk in clinic when I needed to for physicals or if I got sick and they never gave me the same doctor twice. Then we moved here after I was already pregnant and I went to the OB so much I figured I didn't need a GP... then after Levi died I didn't trust any doctor enough to go to them... sigh... I do like my current OB though a lot & I have heard some good things about different family doctors here... guess I'll have to start trusting them again at some point right?
It's kinda funny- I say I have a hard time trusting doctors, but my father in law is/was (he just retired) a well respected doctor in Tallahassee. What's even funnier is along the bottom of my chart is written in large letters "Dr. ____'s daughter in law". A few years ago that would have bothered me. I don't like to receive special treatment for who I am or what my last name is (maiden or married) but there are times I welcome it gladly. I will say though one of the reasons I chose this doctor was not just the recommendation from my MIL but also the recommendations from the support group. I think he truly treats all his patients well- particularly if they have had a loss- he's been very compassionate with others beside myself... BUT... if my FIL's status in the medical community will get extra attention in this pregnancy I'll take it.
It amazes me though... I drove an hour + each way to see the doctor today and I think I was seen by him a total of maybe 15 minutes. Though really time doesn't matter too much. Hearing the beautiful beating of the heart made the time in the car more than worth it. But it does seem a little funny to me- the amount of time in the waiting never equals the amount of time in the visits. I know I've mentioned this before but time is such a strange thing. It's hard to believe that I'm now done with the first trimester! Over 1/3 of this pregnancy is over. I feel like I've tried to enjoy each moment with this baby in case it's the only time I have and the days are still passing quickly. And yet, I want them to pass quickly- I want to fast forward to April when the baby is here. I'll still have things to worry about then, but I won't have to worry if my body will somehow turn on me- or rather turn on my baby.
Sadly enough I could see some people doing that- me- I prefer to go to the doctor when it's necessary but (when not pregnant) once a year is about often enough for me to see a doctor of any type. I can't believe I'm about to admit this in writing but I haven't seen my general practitioner in about 5 years or so. We moved so much after marriage, so I went to a walk in clinic when I needed to for physicals or if I got sick and they never gave me the same doctor twice. Then we moved here after I was already pregnant and I went to the OB so much I figured I didn't need a GP... then after Levi died I didn't trust any doctor enough to go to them... sigh... I do like my current OB though a lot & I have heard some good things about different family doctors here... guess I'll have to start trusting them again at some point right?
It's kinda funny- I say I have a hard time trusting doctors, but my father in law is/was (he just retired) a well respected doctor in Tallahassee. What's even funnier is along the bottom of my chart is written in large letters "Dr. ____'s daughter in law". A few years ago that would have bothered me. I don't like to receive special treatment for who I am or what my last name is (maiden or married) but there are times I welcome it gladly. I will say though one of the reasons I chose this doctor was not just the recommendation from my MIL but also the recommendations from the support group. I think he truly treats all his patients well- particularly if they have had a loss- he's been very compassionate with others beside myself... BUT... if my FIL's status in the medical community will get extra attention in this pregnancy I'll take it.
It amazes me though... I drove an hour + each way to see the doctor today and I think I was seen by him a total of maybe 15 minutes. Though really time doesn't matter too much. Hearing the beautiful beating of the heart made the time in the car more than worth it. But it does seem a little funny to me- the amount of time in the waiting never equals the amount of time in the visits. I know I've mentioned this before but time is such a strange thing. It's hard to believe that I'm now done with the first trimester! Over 1/3 of this pregnancy is over. I feel like I've tried to enjoy each moment with this baby in case it's the only time I have and the days are still passing quickly. And yet, I want them to pass quickly- I want to fast forward to April when the baby is here. I'll still have things to worry about then, but I won't have to worry if my body will somehow turn on me- or rather turn on my baby.
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Hang in there, Rebekah. Suck up the extra attention the doctor might give you because you are Dr. ____'s daughter in law!
I cannot wait until you have your rainbow in your arms. <3 Have you talked about an earlier delivery or anything?
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