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Worthy?

Matthew 10:37-39
37"Anyone who loves his father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves his son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me; 38and anyone who does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.


It's interesting how things can change. I've read the verse before and pondered on it but it didn't hit home like it does now. We've been studying Joshua in Sunday School and I don't even know what connection they were trying to make with the verse in Matthew... and the person who shared the verse didn't go into any explanation of it either. She just kinda tossed it out there. But my mind focused on it the whole morning. (And since I'm writing this on a Tuesday you can see my mind has continued to dwell on it.)

When I'd read that verse before I always wanted to say I was worthy of Christ... not really worthy- I know I can never truly be worthy of the love and the sacrifice He made for me... but anyways... I wanted to be able to proclaim with conviction that Yes! I love Christ that much- more than my love for my parents- or love for my children. I didn't have children then though... I didn't know the deep love a parent has for their child. I know the depths now. And yet, as deep as my love for Levi is, my love for the Father and the Son is deeper.

That doesn't mean I haven't been angry- but my love has overcome the anger.

It doesn't mean I haven't wondered why- but my faith has let me go on without answers.

It doesn't mean I've been a perfect Christian- but His grace allows me to keep trying again.

It doesn't mean I don't love Levi- it just means I love Christ more.

I didn't really have a cross to bear before- I can follow Christ while still bearing the burden of my loss.

I still don't feel that I am worthy of Christ's love- but I'm glad He loves me anyway.
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Wendy said…
Beautiful post! Completely agree. In my loss, I've not only learned the love of a mother, but fell deeper in love with the Lord! Thanks for posting this!
November 11, 2009 at 9:32 PM
Stacey said…
I'm at a loss for words. Beautiful, beautiful post! I love it.
November 12, 2009 at 2:54 PM
Matty said…
If ye love me, keep my commandments.
(John 14:15 KJVR)

To love Christ above anything else means to keep his word supreme. Hence, if your earthly fathers advise disagrees with Christs word, then do Christ's word.
November 23, 2009 at 5:29 AM
Franchesca said…
This is so true. Beautiful post!
December 5, 2009 at 10:33 PM
Beth said…
GREAT post.. thank you for sharing..
December 6, 2009 at 2:01 AM
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